me'& you
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
「 ride it on 10:01 PM 」
i was having a talk with my mum this evening, this topic was being discussed by us for quite a while lately. she kept asking me the same question, whether or not i have decided to be retained. the answer to that quetion is NO, of cuz not. why in the world would i want to get retained. i havent been studying lately because i am still having holiday blues. i just want two or three more days to slack and really do the things that i want, cause i wont have much time to do any of those anymore later. ill definitely try my utmost best to do everything that i can to pass.

i feel like crap now, been having this fucked up feeling lately. i dont know whats the fucking problem that have been bothering me for so long. no one will have the answer to this question i guess. i have so many things that i want to say out loud but i havent found any suitable person to talk with even now as well. family? nah, i wont want to talk to them abt this shit, i feel really uncomfortable talking to them abt these kinda stuff. maybe i shld go to those confession booths in those catholic churches where i can tell the priests wad i really wanna say. haha. just a thought, thats all.

i recently have the "joy" of babysitting my cousins' who are sleeping over at my place. both he and my bro make up a team that is so noisy and just pisses me off, i cant go anywhere, im stuck at home!!! well, to be honest, it really isnt their fault. mainly because im facing financial problems. shit. im left with my last 50 bucks from what i know. *cry

well, i guess i REALLY should start my preparations to study now. time is of the essence as they say, but hey. my mum has been asking me what kind of motivational aspects do i want, hmm. at this point i guess ill be practical. i'll just want moolah, money. haha. yeah. thats what i need at the moment. and i really need to get tuition teachers. shit, i hate the prospect of having to look for tuition and begin them again. its so time consuming, but i guess i have no choice but to go along with it. haiz. its just for my own good. no choice in certain matters.

there are some olld friends who recently asked me whether or not if i was thinking of going to the university or not? of cuz im planning to go the uni, i cant possibly go out in the working society with a miserable A level certificate in the future. shit, guys u shld think before u ask ne this kinda questions again. haha.

anyway, i've been going on and on abt some random topics for the past 10 or maybe 15 minutes, but i really have so many things on my mind that i want to let it out and this is a good way of doing so.

so yeah, ill end here again. continue maybe later or tmr night again, so yea. cya ppl.

aLoy