me'& you
Monday, October 16, 2006
「 ride it on 10:03 PM 」
wow!i had my first promotional paper today. it was Econs. hmm. i wonder how well ill do? i really studied hard for this exam, damm i cant afford to fail. the after effects of me failing will be disastrous. first my mum will kill me, than she will kill me again. haha. yeah. that might just be the case.

i really dont understand how the fuck i ended up in fucking JC. hmm. why did i do that? this was the question that i have been i asking myself all this time. would i be better off in poly, taking the course that i liked and having fun with my friends? well there is very little that i can do about it now anyway, i have to do is finish up this race. i hope i win. i dont wanna lose and get retained. i want the first prize. the chance to be promoted to JC2. hmm. is it really that hard? helll yeah! based on the fucked up JC record, it has always been the custom or so called tradition for the school to retain almost half the level of the students. shit. dont really know wad the fuck is the school thinking.

anyway, enough of this. i had a talked with one of my friends in sch this evening of retaining. hmm. the talked sort of made me think alot about things and make me feel really emo. the next paper tomorrow is history and hell! we are all having difficulties with it. i hope that luck will be on myside tmr and allow me to complete all the questions with ease and ill remember everything that i have studied so far.

just another 4 more days and its all over, its like a do or die kinda thing. hmm. really have no choice. i really do not want this fucked up bad dreamof retaining to happen. shit. i dont know wad wil happen to me if it happens. ill have so many things on my mind, should i go poly instead or remain in the fucked up place which i...ARRRRR!!!!!!! confused. dont wanna think abt it anymore.

i just want saturday to come soon. so we can all go and celebrate and enjoy the last moments that we have before the results come back. shit. ok. this is just so stressful and i dont know. no words to describe wad i am feeling now.

WHY! TELL ME WHY!!

i dont seem to be getting the answers that i want, really where are u? emotions running wild...goodbye ppl. i gotta get back to studying. i feel much better now after letting it all out.

aLoy

gd luck ppl. hope u all do well.