me'& you
Monday, September 25, 2006
「 ride it on 9:01 PM 」

today really sucked for me. i just dont know why. i know my PROMOs is coming soon. but i just dun seem to have the mood to study. i have been feeling really screwed up lately. i dont wanna count the percentage i need to get in order to get promoted. i dont wanna see the results. why is life so fucked up, why cant it be perfect? or just be nice. like a good day everyday. no bad shit happening. no fucking exams. haiz. i think if this shit carries on, im gonna go into depression and might need counselling. fuck. i hate it.

we all have dreams. i wanna start my own company. i wanna make big $$$. i dont wanna live life suffering in future, such that we have to worry about stuffs. that we wont have enuff cash to do the things we want, go into dept or such shit. hell no. i dont want this to happen. live life in comfort, do the things i want. shit. why is it so stressful here.

hell. this aint gonna be a dream. ill realise it. its gonna happen. haha. yeah i know. ambitious, some of u might say. but who cares. we need ambitions. we need something to work for. so that life wont be meaningless.

but really what is life? is it but a dream? what is it? why must there be hardship? why must there be sadness? why must there be pain? somebody, tell me why.

something happened recently which made me really pissed off, well, not really pissed, but just upset. i dont know why it happened. was it a right choice? i bet that there is sure gonna be conflicts in the future because of this. but what can we say. nothing. the only thing that we can do is just sulk. what use is that. no fucking use i say.

went out for dinner wif my cuz and lets say 1/4 of the whole family. had some zhi ca ay yishun. was really cheap. cost about $63, and we had like 5 huge portions of dishes, inclusive of prawns and other stuff. it was sort of a small welcome back dinner for my cuz who just got back form Aussie.

got fucking nth else to say anymore, i just fucking hope that i wont retain or ill be really fucked up. hell. i might even consider going to poly because of this shit. the stress and workload is killing me. ok ppl. cya.

aLoy

continue mugging ur asses off for PROMOs than we go party afterwards ppl.